flashback to two months ago

Lyin'  here with you so close to me
It's hard to fight these feelings when it feels so hard to breathe
I'm caught up in this moment, caught up in your smile

I've never opened up to anyone
So hard to hold back when I'm holding you in my arms
We don't need to rush this, let's just take it slow

Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight
Just a touch of the fire burning so bright
And I don't want to mess this thing up
No, I don't want to push too far

Just a shot in the dark that you just might
Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life
So baby, I'm alright with just a kiss goodnight

I know that if we give this a little time
It'll only bring us closer to the love we wanna find
It's never felt so real, no, it's never felt so right

Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight
Just a touch of the fire burning so bright
No, I don't want to mess this thing up
I don't want to push too far

Just a shot in the dark that you just might
Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life
So baby, I'm alright with just a kiss goodnight

No, I don't want to say goodnight
I know it's time to leave
But you'll be in my dreams
Tonight, tonight, tonight

Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight
Just a touch of the fire burning so bright
And I don't want to mess this thing up
I don't want to push too far

Just a shot in the dark that you just might
Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life
So baby, I'm alright

Oh, let's do this right with just a kiss goodnight
With a kiss goodnight, kiss goodnight

the five people you meet in heaven

Lost love is still love, Eddie. it takes a different form that's all. you can't see their smile or bring them food or tousle their hair or move them around a dance floor. but when those senses weaken, another heightens. memory. memory becomes your partner. you nurture it. you hold it. you dance with it.

People say they 'find' love, as if it were an object hidden by a rock. but love takes many forms, and it is never the same for any man and woman. what people find then is a certain love. 

That's the thing. sometimes when you sacrifice something precious, you're not really losing it. you're just passing it on to someone else. 

happiness is a choice

and so i was feeling a little down today because of unfortunate events last weekend, and then just a moment ago i came across one of my favorite lines from Eat, Pray, Love: 

Lord, please help me memorize this feeling of contentment and help me always to support it.

i've always made that prayer every time i am feeling satisfied with my life. that i wish that kind of feeling would be etched in my memory so i can always go back to it and be inspired by it when i am feeling a little sad. it may be hard to remember that feeling of contentment when your heart is crying but it is worth a try. remember, happiness is a choice. so now i am in the process of going back to that feeling of happiness. of how it feels like to be content. i know someday, not too long from now that i will finally have that kind of feeling again. :)  

para sa iyo

Wag ka nang umiyak sa mundong pabago-bago
Pag-ibig ko ay totoo
Ako ang bangka
Kung magalit man ang alon at panahon
Sabay tayong aahon

Kung wala ka ng maintindihan
Kung wala ka ng makapitan
Kapit ka sa akin
Hindi kita bibitawan
Wag ka nang umiyak mahaba man ang araw
Uuwi ka sa yakap ko
Wag mo nang damdamin
Kung wala ako sa iyong tabi
Iiwan ko ang puso ko sayo
At kung pakiramdaman mo'y
Wala ka ng kakampi
Isipin mo ako dahil
Puso't isip ko'y nasa iyong tabi

so kiss me goodbye because im defying gravity

somewhere along our life's journey, we lose people close to our hearts.not the kind who pass away in this world, because that is beyond our control. the kind of people im talking about here are those who chose to leave us for reasons we may not understand yet, but definitely because its part of the plan.

now when i was younger and immature, i tend to sulk at these partings.it took me a long time to finally get over it. i had separation anxiety.big time.

going through life experiences like these has definitely made me a stronger person.reading books and having constant dialogues with sensible people has also helped me a lot in managing difficult situations.

now i realized that we really should not feel bad about the people who leave us.how about putting yourself in their shoes and try to see things based from their perspective? yes, they chose to leave because its the best thing to do. we may not understand it yet when the pain is still fresh, but someday it will all make sense. and the most important thing i learned is that dont force people to stay when they've already made a decision to go. in fact, you should initiate it when you begin to notice that they are not happy anymore. they will love you more for that, trust me. i am proud to say that i am beginning to master this it is almost an art.

so i thank those who left, for the memory they have left behind. and the moments shared with them.but more importantly, for the lessons learned and for taking part in making me a better person.