Being Twenty-Something

as quoted:

They call it the "Quarterlife Crisis." It is when I stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are a lot of things about myself that I didn't know and may not like. I start feeling insecure and wonder where I will be in a year or two, but then get scared because I barely know where I am now.

I start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that I thought I were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people I have ever met and the people I have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What I do not realize is that they are realizing that too
and are not really cold or catty or mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as I am.

I look at my job. It is not even close to what I thought I would be doing or maybe I am looking for one and realizing that I am going to have to start at the bottom and are scared.

I miss the comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with the same people on a constant basis. But then I realize that maybe they weren't so great after all. I am beginning to understand myself and what I want and do not want.

My opinions have gotten stronger. I see what others are doing and find myself judging a bit more than usual because suddenly I realize that I have certain boundaries in my life and add things to my list of what is acceptable and what is not.

I am insecure and then secure. I laugh and cry with the greatest force of my life. I feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly change is the enemy and I try and cling on to the past with dear life but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away and there is nothing to
do but stay where I am or move forward.

I get my heart broken and wonder how someone I loved could do such damage to me or I lay in bed and wonder why I can't meet anyone decent enough to get to know better. I love someone but maybe love someone else too and cannot figure out why I am doing this because I am not a bad person.

I worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for myself and while winning the race would be great, right now I'd just like to be a contender!

What I may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.